After few months without Internet, I tent to put most of my focus on silencing the internal dialogue.
Trying to force it silence
not to much success… but I came to observe it more often and be wary of it more.
Recently by observing it I realised that the worlds that are being said are like… I already knew them before they become dialogs in my mind?
As if my mind is just repeating something that came before it, a much smaller internal dialogue.
I think the knowing part is not the same as the small dialogue
More to say that the louder one is just repeating the smaller one after the knowing.
In other words, the smaller one is controlling the louder one? Or the knowing part is being pulled by the smaller voice? It’s like a wisper you tell your friend and your friend repeats that loud?
What if the knowing part can sense and know many things but the smaller internal dialogue hand picks, filters and direct data that it needs to be said
And knowing this when you put your attention on each one of these 3 layers, the layer below stops,
After I focused on the “already knowing layer” and “questioning how it knows what my internal dialogue is going to say” the 2 that comes after, are quite down
And it comes with a stressful feelings.
And thinking with my internal dialogue would translate this stress as “I never worked with only knowing what to do without saying them, I don’t know it how”?
The layer between the “already knowing” and “loud internal dialogue” which I believe is in control, could be the Flyer mind or maybe something else?
Theory is that when it activities the “already knowing part notice” first that what its pulling and the the “loud internal dialogue” repeats it automatically
This might not be true, but let’s give each layer better names
If we call “already knowing layer” the “Intent”
The “smaller internal dialogue” “Flyer’s mind”
And the “louder concrete internal dialogue” simply “Internal dialogue”
We have:
Intent
Flyer’s mind
Internal dialogue
And our concessions seemes to be trained to just follow, not be suspicious, ignore these and not look for them.
With this diagram, seems like Flyer’s mind covering and blocking our intent and manipulating it with their own will.
It’s like they can’t creat new data, they can only use data from first layer, blocking what they don’t like. (like pulling the strings of a puppets) 
Like how there’s a parasite “Cymothoa exigua” that eats the fish’s tongue, feeding of their blood, the fish has a fake tongue that only dose the job, no longer feeling taste of its food.
This is like as if Flyers manipulat us by filtering data, making itself the only bridge between Intent and us by slowly taking over from our birth, to force us to intend what they want from us, to create their favorite type of energy to eat, which is from intense feelings they cause with internal dialogue and then, suck them all up from the luminous shell?
Aye I’m thinking too much of it. brain rot! Too much brain rots!
Looks like you caught the stress it’s giving you red-handed!
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