Sawadee krap! Welcome and keep on practicing. I’ve yet to see anything similar to the frog egg pattern which you mentioned, but I’ve seen puffers shaped like skulls or screaming faces. What color was the lights you saw when gazing?
You’ll get better with time and practice. Keep your intent sharp and your inner dialogue silent. If automatic thinking keeps on happening, keep bringing your attention back to silence, little victories add up.
And the words confused me for a long time. I insisted on understanding them and how they related, to what I already knew. The ones that can relate anyway.
Decades ago. I went on a Bon / Buddhist tibetian tradition (Bon tibetian shamanism mixed with a bit of buddhism). Learning and reading spree. The Bon tradition, made sense to me. A lot. And corresponded to experiences I already had. I never practiced shamanism as it used entities or spirits . And I’d had many personal experiences with Demons and bad spirits and a few good (IOBs). I was just plain scared of them, in general.
Even the Om… was years later shown to me by an IOB. It even showed me the waveform of the actual sound… In 3d no less! Not to mention had it going so loud a physical person could not tolerate it.
It was very close to OM they use but not exactly. There was a bit more.
Maybe humans cant make that sound? I am not a music expert.
Anywho. Nice picture! I can only do stick figures.
When I tried it the first thing I saw was purple puffs that kind of morph and sometimes I can see little objects show up, random stuff. I recently bought a mask so i can open my eyes and have darkness as it was hard to be fully dark with eyes open. When I start doing this I feel a tingling in my upper back near the spine but a little to the left as it was sort of behind my heart, so to speak.