Pitying oneself is the epitome of most of DJ’s teachings. He would call it “too much self-importance.. you’re not important enough to the universe to pity yourself so much” or something.
As for the glow: sexual energy is Creative energy or Life. Send the impulses upward and feel yourself be more able to Penetrate Life. Reproduction doesn’t have to have anything to do with it.
It means don’t wastefully expend sexual energy. Use it for the purpose it’s intended for if you are to use it. Otherwise don’t squander it.
The mentality of ‘I’m a gay man and this is not applicable to me, it makes me angry and I’m now offended and feel like a victim.’ is the antithesis of everything in the teachings. You’ve actually been given a gift in this. You have a perfect opportunity to stalk yourself and use that offense and poor me internal dialogue as a way to bolster your own power.
Good luck, I hope you see the battle and come out successful!
This is amazing advice. Don’t worry about it til you believe it is hindering you. At that point you will decide which is more valuable and it will be easy for you to not spank the monkey. You won’t even think about it, unless you decide to. That urge won’t consume your thoughts anymore.
But are we to be completely abstinent or is it more of a semen retention kinda thing?
Personally, that’s my interpretation. I see it as: How often am I willing to allow my most precious spiritual energy to be wasted? And, more importantly, who am I willing to share that with? Will they reciprocate or just mooch it? If it’s reciprocated, then it is both replenished AND increased.
just dont spill your seed brother thats all that its really saying here. seman retention storing as much as you can. seman when saved and utilized properly will travel up the spine into the hypothalamus there it dies, giving off a fishy smell it then crystallizes an electric impulse happens connecting the two hemispheres of the brain giving you the ultimate level of consciousness.
Hi sir. I sent you a message. Thank you if you will read it.
Funny thing is, if you abstain from all sexual activies (including masturbation) and forego sexual matters in your mind for a year or more … you will find you are not so gay after all. 
I am jesting here, of course …