thanks, i’ll try to use the info, that the spirit notices and rewards, as a motivation to overcome the laziness.
for that “theoretical student” yes
There’s more going on there than meets the eye.
I’m frantically trying to fix some household things for Cholita before she gets home on Monday, if she hasn’t actually gotten herself into trouble in Mexico.
So I’m driving back and forth while trying to do my normal job.
And it’s all horrible construction work of the kind that causes your hands to be shredded with cuts no matter how hard you try to avoid that.
Plus my eyesight isn’t good enough for it.
But I’m doing it anyway, and just now while gazing out at the sky, I saw a giant curved structure that had been altered by me not giving in to laziness and self-pity.
And realized, that seers can see such things, and manipulate apprentices based on seeing “blockages”.
There’s a famous story one of the witches told of Juan Tuma sticking his penus in one of the witches faces and making her stare at it, to remove a “blockage”.
That kind of story was edited out of the books for obvious reasons.
But in fact, our very being is structured by a series of “blockages” which confine us to the human form, and define our normal “self”.
And any time you push yourself a bit further than you’re normally willing to go, you might actually be modifying the boundaries of your “self” a bit towards being a seer.
Still, as a group we should probably all vow to dump the Juan Tuma penis trick…
Not good for our situation where success relies on a steady flow of new people.
Is it possible to connect this to a Telegram bot, so it can be used from there too?
You’ll have to ask u/superr
It was his scrotum, not his penis.
They made a particular point of that, that it was even more unexpected and shocking to her normal flow of expectations than the actual member.
The interruption was what they were after.
Well, I just saw for myself that this is not only valid, but something a “seer” can actually perceive.
A “blockage”.
Visually!
I couldn’t get ChatGPT to draw it, so I finally told him to just draw this, and it’s what I asked for, but not very close to what I saw.
Cholita caused it, and that’s a fact. From thousands of miles away.
But whether she knows she did, is debatable.
In fact, in the last 2 days she’s seemed to have done all sorts of things that nearly made me faint.
As if her double never left.
For example, I fixed some things in the house she hadn’t let me fix for months, and even years. Because she was gone for a week, so I could do it.
Then I set things in order so that she couldn’t notice I’d done it. Put all the stuff I had to move carefully back precisely where it had been.
The theory being, she’ll just think something started working again, and not bother me about it.
But then the next day I went into a room where I’d fixed something, and everything was moved around in disarray. As if she came home, used it, and was in a hurry to leave so she left a mess.
I’ve even searched around the house to make sure she didn’t come back early and hide, like she’s done for years.
But she didn’t, because she’s gotten herself into trouble in Mexico.
Anyway, I’m not sure how you know that a scrotum will do the job of unblocking a gigantic pringles chip in the sky.
Maybe the nasty version of the voice of seeing explains what could remove that blockage?
It would be interesting if one of the witches wrote the “uncensored” account of what don Juan was like, picking one of the books of Carlos and then “explaining” it a bit more.
Such as when don Juan told Carlos that he was far too stiff to hear the “doings of the Nagual Julian”.
Who dressed men up like women…
Wait!
Never mind. I don’t want to read that book.
Let Corey read it and add it to his website.
Hey Jadey 
I don’t mean to contradict you, but I wonder if the intent of those who practice now is stronger; we don’t have a leader, group or class to teach and motivate. We have to read/study the books, search the internet and put in time to practice. Anybody applying/practicing the techniques and making gains is self driven and exercising their intent.
Maybe. Time will tell. There may be a strong intent, and I’ve seen a few committed people here that have achieved a lot, but my personal opinion is that the intent of many completely new people is a little off. Not saying that it can’t be corrected, I was just saying that old practitioners shouldn’t be written off.
I totally agree with you; previous practioners would have an easier time; applying the techniques and quickly moving the AP cause they know the feeling of will/intent and previous experience getting silent. Darkroom would be a huge push for those ppl?
For people who’ve read the books and gone into the internet looking for more, this subreddit seems to beckon; at least it did for me, and I resisted cause I’m not big on social media stuff.
u/Jadeyelmonte , I’m going to wholeheartedly agree here with you. Although not a private student of Carlos’s, I attended Tensegrity workshops going back to the early ones given in Culver City. My commitment to this path despite being a single mother at the time was intense. I was the only person I knew at the time to actually do a thorough recapitulation; it took me a two full years.
I am so grateful to this subreddit and the introduction of darkroom but I have NOT been able to obtain the same level of commitment as I once had. Not gonna lie. It bothers me. I know what that 100% commitment feels like, I just have not obtained it yet.
Is it alright if I ask how long you recapped daily (give or take)?
In those years, I rearranged my life for recapping. Probably put in an hour a day. Only reached green zone feel good places. Never any visual effects but then again, I recapped in daylight and we never knew about darkroom back in the day.
Thank you! I know that gazing is my favorite, I can do it for hours and hours (have been limiting myself). 1 hour of recap is doable for me so far, gonna try and work on tensegrity for an hour too. That gets me to 3 hours of practice 
Have you read this: https://www.altaonline.com/dispatches/a60923618/carlos-castaneda-cult-geoffrey-gray/
And if so, what do you think?